People who experienced deep suffering and are still gentle with others do not get enough credit. To not let the hard things that happened to you win is heroic work. To drop the bitterness and still live with an open heart despite it all is a massive gift to the world.

Yung Pueblo

Dear fellow bloggers and friends,

It’s been a while since I have done a check-in with you all. I think its only fair to let you know where I have been the last few weeks. If you have been with me since the beginning, you know that check-ins follow this format:

I feel, I need, I forgive, I celebrate, I release, and I trust 😊. Let’s get into it.

I feel like there are so many unknowns going on in my life and unfortunately, most of them I have no control over. I feel tired but optimistic that things will work out as they should in time.

I need to take care of myself right now. I need to surround myself with people who lift me up and bring light into my world.

I forgive myself for not listening sooner to what a person was telling me all along. I could have saved myself the crushed heart if I would have only paid more attention.

I celebrate the fact that I didn’t let this rejection break me like the last one. I celebrate the fact that I chose differently than my usual patterns. I stayed conscious and reminded myself who I am

I release anything and everything that isn’t for me. I release the need to control a situation I am in. I simply will just be.

I trust that in time everything will come to together like it should. I trust that everything will be okay no matter what.

Friends last week was hard that I can say for a fact. But I am so proud of myself for not falling back into old patterns and ways of coping that I know no longer serve the person I am becoming. As a naturally anxious person, I have always been the one chasing or begging someone else to see my worth… But this is what I am learning and practicing from now on:

Don’t chase, tell them exactly how you feel and accept their answer.

Don’t accept crumbs, ask for more of what you want. If they refuse or can’t give at the level you give, walk.

Let whoever wants to leave, leave but don’t be afraid to be raw and tell them you don’t want them to leave…

But don’t block the door.

Letting go is hard, but nothing is harder on our mind, body, and spirit then forcing, gripping, and clinging.

When you discover your self-worth, you lose interest in anyone who doesn’t see it.

Thank you all for taking the time to read this post.

Until next time,

Much love


Title inspo: Man in the Mirror by Michael Jackson

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